Re: Relationships and other topics that captured my attention

Decided to change the format of my blog from a dark gloomy one to a more refreshing one. Psychologically, this change reflects the change in my dark brooding mood to a more upbeat fresh outlook on life.

Yesterday in the underpass at esplanade, my friend took a picture of me doing a seven.(You can see the photos below this entry) Thought it was a pretty good pose til I compared it with a similar picture someone else took of me a year back. I look pretty much the same in both of the pictures except for one change. I've put on weight! Its not very obvious til you notice the region around the tummy. In the picture of me doing the tombstone you can see that I had some definition around my tummy, and in the recent one you'll not see any definition! Friend of mine suggested doing 200 crunches and leg raises a day.

Hmm...Nah... Don't think I'll do that.

Was talking to Lynnette(The girl I met on the train, wonder if she'll mind me posting her photo in my blog) on MSN yesterday and she told me to "move my blog" Was rather pleasantly surprised to hear that because that would mean she bothers checking it out once in a while. She'll probably be the first person ever to bother checking out my blog! I'm flattered. I would never think that anyone would be interested in reading my blog, 1) because this blog mostly was used as a place to air my dirty linen and to express my infatuations. With that objective in mind, its hardly audience friendly 2) Secondly, I don't consider whatever I write witty, deep or humourous entries. Trying not to make spelling mistakes is my priority whenever I write a post! Hence, how interesting can my entries get?

How do I feel about Lynnette now? Well, I really do like talking to her and yes I still do find her attractive. But she's in a relationship with someone else now. Sigh... anyway, even if she were single I doubt I'll get anywhere with her. I'm a total klutz when it comes to relationships. Totally inexperienced and inept in such stuff. Hahah, I'm just whinning. Shalln't give it anymore thought for today.

The next topic in my mind is what we'll all been waiting for!(or at least what I've been waiting for to write about) Relationships!!! Yes, the topic of relationships in all its sordid glory! Like I mentioned was talking to Larry, Zhiyang and Belinda about how many relationships they've been through. And oh boy was I surprised! Asked one of them how many relationships have he/she been through and the reply was "serious or non-serious"? Hahah, scandalous!

Oh boy, one answered 3(if I remember correctly) But if he/she included non-serious ones, add another 5 to that number. The other person was deep in thought for a while and after a while said 4 serious ones. And after another 5 minutes abruptly blurted out 24 non-serious ones(around that number)! And he/she thought about it and added one more, remembering that, that girl that he forgot was the super horny girl that doesn't talk much. Shessh... Oh man! I never knew I had such scandalous pals! He/she went on later to talk about how he/she feels that he/she is being used by boys/girls as a sex toy. That the boys/girls(notice the plural) call him/her a Sex God/Goddess. I remember asking him/her then if he/she feels that he/she is being used as a sex toy why does he/she do it? Then the reply was "because sometimes in the mnd of the night, I feel horny" Me too... Me too... Heheh

Another of them asked us, "What would you do if you like this girl and she likes you back?"

And we replied
"But she's a man?"
"But you're a woman?"
"She likes women?"
"She's got cancer?"
"You got AIDS?"
"You have a small dick?"

"But she's attached?"

Correct!

"Then why don't you have a fling with her?"

Yah, I am already...

Shesh man, the skeletons in my friends closet are numerous enough for a Lim Chu Kang graveyard! Somehow I don't feel so bad now about the "Bastard" entry in my blog.

A picture of me taken yesterday. Compare it with last year's one and you'll realise my abs are gone!!! 

A picture of me doing a tombstone a year ago 

The return to blogging

Been away from blogging for a long time. I guess alot happened since then. Stopped dating Cheryl Loh after she told me that she has absolutely no interest having in a relationship. I'm glad she's honest with me and truthfully I'm glad this is all out in the open between the both of us, we don't click at all. Communication between us was rather strained. In a way, I felt relieved that nothing happened between us. Spending time trying out a relationship that wouldn't work in the end, would be akin to flogging a dead horse in a race. I'll rather run alone.

This semester's results aren't too good this time round. 2 A-s and 2 B+s. That would mean I'll need a 2As and 3A-s to make it for the Dean's list this academic year. I don't see much difficulty in achieving that. Singlehood has its advantages. Namely 1) my Grade Point Average 2) a cheaper phone bill and 3) More free time at night. However if I could choose to share my life with someone else in the world from all the people I know, I'm quite sure I would choose the girl I met on the train in transit. Hahah, she's a fantastic person. I wish I had more friends like her.

Was on the train heading towards Raffles Place and I was just standing in the middle of the train. Around me were a group of guys talking about a computer game called DOTA(Defense Of the Ancients, a game which I'm guilty of playing every night too) and this girl reading her book with her back faced towards me. At that point in time, I had no one in my life to send a text to and there were no pretty Ah Lians(girls with a bad sense of Fashion in Singapore) to ogle at. All in all, I felt really bored in the train, after looking around I saw this girl reading a book with her back faced towards me. So since she placed her book so convienantly towards my eyes I started reading her book over her shoulder. People never cease to fascinate me! There is a story behind everyone in the world and I'm always fascinated by their lives. So I thought I'll just read over her shoulder and perhaps catch a glimpse of her life through what she read. Initially I thought it would be some trashy romance novel about blond, sexy, witty, altruistic, romantic intelligent causasian men with 6 packs and a castle in England wooing a beautiful but not the most beautiful woman who's confused. Didn't expect to see a girl reading a book titled Quantum Evolution. Interesting stuff! It attempts to explain the evolution of life through quantum physics. Was rather absorbed in the book. Usually I would not find stuff like this interesting, but perhaps it was the thrill of reading a book(I wasn't looking at her cleavage!If that's what you are thinking... her blouse didn't allow for that) over someone's shoulder, or maybe its because I've been yearning to be a more intellectual person, and I would not rule out that probably its because she rather pretty and somehow the things that attractive people read become attractive and interesting to me too.

As the train went on towards Raffles Place, I was thinking to myself, she obviously knows that I'm reading over her shoulder yet she does not shun me and instead she shifts towards my direction after putting the book away. Therefore, she must be interested in knowing the guy who reads over her shoulder!!!(excellant deduction Holmes!) Muhahahah, so I gathered my guts, silenced the butterflies in my tummy and took the plunge by asking her about the book. And when I asked about the book, she went all super enthusiastic about it, handed me the book and took my number down!!! Yay! I was thinking, further proof that she's interested in me. So that was a pretty happy day for me and I was telling my friends over MSN about what great day it was for me to meet such an attractive and intellectual girl(turns out she loves philosophy and all that arts stuff too) who's attracted to me too.

Until I found out over MSN 1)that she REALLY loves the book! 2)And that she didn't even notice that I was reading over her shoulder. (Results of 1+2 to 3)That she lent me the book because she thinks that the book is really good and is so altrusitic that she's willing to lend it to a stranger to share her joy. Hahahah, well done charles. Well done! Funny how much different my perception of reality differs from reality. Well its a bit of a disappointment I must admit, especially after finding out that she's attached. However, it was a rare pleasure talking to her over MSN for 3 hours. She's an extremely easy person to talk to who has great empathy for others. I don't think I've ever met anyone as interesting to talk to as her. I could just talk to her about anything! She's just fantastic.... a chimerical conversationalist! Outta this world.

That's why if I could choose someone in the world to be with, I would choose her! Hahahah, oh well... too bad she's taken by this Malaysian guy.(bloody malaysians crossing over our borders to take away our women. Grrrr....) hahahahah, one day I'll sneak into Malaysia and sneak into the Kampong and steal their women too!(with a few chickens and coconuts to!) Bloody Malaysians! Grrr...

Was talking to Larry and Zhiyang today and they told me something rather interesting. Will talk about it in the next entry! DOTA beckons!!!